and...

I hate intership on wednesdays.... its sooo ackward being w/ the dude who I dislike the most
we were best friends, the beggining of the year.... we told each other everything and I realized how much we had in common.... I didn't know as much about him last yr, since I liked him sooo much and was shy and stuff.... so ya wednesdays were fun for a while, having a close guy friend that I could relate to, it was like we could read each other's mind and we gave each other advice on relationships and stuff, just enjoyed life ya know?.... and now they suck b/c I don't like being around him...... idk why he acted sooo stupid, I mean we were just friends and I was cool w/ that but w/e.... only 10 more days of that stressful crap....

on a more positive note:

like I mentioned in the last post, I am starting to let myself fall for someone again..... and this dude is like a 9 1/2 lol maybe even a 10!! he's sooo sweet and silly and best of all he makes me HAPPY!!! he gives me a reason to go to school everyday lol


p.s dis-regard the blogs about a hazel eyed dude.... I never really liked him like that.... he was just someone who helped me not like the dude I liked last yr ne more and the dude I am falling for does NOT have hazel eyes lol.... they r blue ha ha!

lets see.....

freshman yr I had the biggest crush of my life.... and also my first heartbreak..... liking that dude was such a roller coaster ride..... he was sooo confusing and crap....he flirted w/ everyone, but everyone swore he liked me back..... so after I had had enough and couldn't take it ne more, I thought I'd never like ne ever again..... at least the wayyy I liked him..... and now I am starting to let myself fall for someone again..... who is wayyy cuter and nicer than last yr dude..... and I am happy :)whether it is just friends or more, I know this person is amazing!